Life With Adhesions

A little blog to help people understand what it is like to live with adhesions!

It’s my Birthday…and I’ll Cry if I Want To.

on March 8, 2012

My Birthday was on the weekend!  Yippie – fabulous 35.  It’s really just a number and I still feel about 19 – so what does it matter?  The number itself has no meaning to me.  This year however, I had to choose how to best use my energy on my birthday.  Was I going to go out with my wonderful husband, was I going to spend it with my family, or would I have enough energy to do anything at all?

So, I decided that it was going to be an all about me day and that I would pay for the consequences and hurts after.  I decided to treat myself to a pedicure – since I’m on medical leave, I actually had the day “off” on my birthday.  I never get the day off, so I decided to treat myself.  I loved it!  It was great and relaxing and loved the sparkly red-black nail polish I chose.  However, it did use up a lot of energy so I came home and napped until it was time to get ready for supper.  Had planned to spend a lot of time getting ready and making myself “pretty”, but just didn’t have the energy and I used up some of my energy trying on different pants that wouldn’t be too tight on my swollen belly and cause me to be uncomfortable when I sat to have supper.  Then on to the shoes – tried one pair of high-heeled boots and after 10 mins decided that I just couldn’t do it.  So, I had my hubby help me take off those boots and decided on a knee-hair flat heeled pair instead.  While, by now I have squished and squashed my belly enough that I am hurting – all in the desire to look good!

Off to the restaurant we go – excited and hungry and trying to push the pain away so that I can enjoy the evening!  We had a great meal and my hubby is always fantastic company, but by the time we got home I was done in and had to crawl into bed for another nap.  Ended the night watching some TV and snuggling with my hubby on the couch.  Spent the rest of the weekend recovering and staying in my PJ’s.  Scheduled the “family birthday” for this upcoming weekend and still have to make plans for a birthday supper with my in-laws sometime.  So, I ask myself, “Was it worth it?” The answer is yes – but it sure sucks all that I had to go through to enjoy something that other people take for granted!  Never before have I dreaded my birthday, but this year it just seems like too much of a hassle!

So, it’s my birthday and I’ll cry if I want to! 🙂


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